My mindset is changing, and the way I think is changing. I realized that this month as I was getting ready to go on a vacation with my husband. In my suitcase I packed a soft lunchbox packed full of protein bars and protein powder divided up into baggies, this was a first ever! I didn’t want to totally fall off track while I was away from my normal routine and it really helped. While sitting in the airport or while we were out sight seeing if I got hungry and thought I needed a snack or when my husband pulled over for a candy bar, I would grab one of the protein bars I packed. Other times while out for a drive on vacation and we would swing into a gas station for something to munch on I would grab beef jerky or almonds staying well aware of my goals in mind. When we went out to eat, instead of adding pointless calories into my diet with a soda or lemonade I would get an iced water with either lemon or cherries in it. All of these little tricks helped so much!
My workouts this month have been pretty consistent. I “need” to workout now for “me time”. I didn’t think I would ever feel like I “needed” to work out but I do now. I really enjoy working out. But with that said, I still have my struggles and doubts. On the days I want to quit and throw in the towel, and on the days I feel like I failed I turn to a friend who is traveling a different path and has different goals but can relate to my emotions and struggles. She has picked me up time and time again and kept pushing me forward. She is my go-to person when I just need to vent about this journey. She too is training with the same trainer and we often compare notes on “did he make you do this?! Did he make you do that?!” And by having her by my side I have kept going. I look at her and think if she can do it then I can do it. In all honesty if she was not there with me and coming to me with her issues and struggles I think I would have bailed. We all have our people who inspire us and my friend inspires me in so many ways. She is a fighter with MS and epilepsy and is one of the most determined people I know. So to my friend (you know who you are), Thank you. Thank you for being there.
With this next month here and now having my workouts down to a routine I want to focus in on my diet. My diet is what is really holding me back, yet has come a long ways from where it was when I started this journey. When I started this journey I didn’t bat an eye at not eating most days until 3 in the afternoon. My caloric intake was about 1000 calories at its best in a day. Since then I have gotten into the habit of eating breakfast and having a mid morning protein shake for a snack. But I am still far from where I need to be to really start seeing some results. I know what I need to do, now it is time to do it. Look for an update on this in my next blog!